I'm Back, Will Anyone notice? Did anyone notice my leaving?

Uh...... Hi,

In case you hadn't noticed,  I had deleted my blog but I missed it so much that I had to un-delete it and once again muddle through with my bad typing and grammar skills.

I've missed you few who read my blog and I apologize  for my absence.

I do not have a good excuse for my leaving and I have no excuse for returning but such reasons I have,  I will share with you.

Fear is the biggest reason,  I fear for what this country, and worse what we citizens,  will have to endure in order to bring our nation back from,  what I believe is,  the brink of  disaster.  What  has stopped me from speaking out could best be described as "deer in the headlight syndrome". 

Low self esteem also has stopped me from writing what I have wanted to write.  Their are so many voices out there who so eloquently espouse the message of conservatism,  who am I to muddy the waters with my not so eloquent blog?

On a personal note,  My wife and I,  after seventeen years of marriage will soon end said marriage.  I'm still living in the same house with my wife and my fourteen year old daughter.  As you can imagine there is a lot of strain and things at home are not so comfortable.  I soon hope to go back to over the road trucking.  Of course the collapse of my marriage means that I will no longer have my editor which adds to my feelings of having inadequate writing skills.

I am hopeful that the few of you who read my blog will find their way back and we can start up again where we left off but even if no one reads it I am at a point where I feel the need to continue writing for my own mental health.